Today was interesting. I got a lot of work due, and also was given the run around. Today as me and my peers worked my coworkers started saying how grateful and helpful I am, because I helped them get a lot of work done that would have taken a good while if they did it alone. Then later on someone asked who cleaned the sample closet, because she hasn’t seen it that clean. Another co-worker told her it was me and I felt proud for being notice of all my hard work and being helpful. It kind of gave me an small ego boost, but I know better than to let that effect my work. So I continued on with what I was doing. When the comments did come up I took at least a few minutes to enjoy them and then got back to work.
My ego and pride is my downfall, and so I’m always trying to keep it in check. Even though I do notice whenever my ego tries to help me out, sometimes, I usually push it to the side.

My sister always told me how I should be more mean and tuff, that who being nice and sweet won’t get me anything. Oh please *shaking my head and rolling my eyes*. I have proven that being nice is the better choice, and that my humble nature gets me what I need. What really holds me back is not the fact I’m nice, it’s the fact I doubt myself way to much. Because of this I can come off shy and easily put down. There was even a time I have even question if I was really supposed to be born a guy but at the last second made a girl. I know what I like and that is something I could never doubt. I am bisexual and happy because of that. But I have times where I don’t feel like I’m in the wrong body.
Either way, doubt, pride, and ego is my downfall, but I’ll get through it. I’m usually very angry or very happy. It’s when I get very sad it could last for days. But on any other day I’m a mix of anger and happy, they go back and forth throughout my day. I rarely feel neutral. Hack I have times where I have days where I don’t feel anything, I become cold and numb.