insecurity:
lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt

I’ve been insecure almost all my life or that I know of. This is probably one the reasons why I always try to find someone to be with or want a relationship. I guess I need to enjoy what I have, and embrace everything that comes my way. to go for goal I guess. Next things have to worry about is actually just having fun cuz I need to relax and enjoy myself.