I miss having protein powder š Gonna buy some next month. Since it was the only thing keeping me motivated to do resistance training. Like I tried do some simple resistance workouts yesterday and today, but I feel like shit. Not to mention it took everything in me to push myself through without folding. Yet,… Read More Health 072
Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you. Comfort me when dealing emotionally distress. Mainly my grandparents, and my dad when he takes me to the doctors growing up. And recently, my dad validating my decision to leave New York to better my life. Especially stating heās happy I left my sisters… Read More Healing Journey ###
I donāt know how to describe it but I always feel like Iām home whenever Iām in a hardware store. Probably because I grew up in my dadās shop, and went with him whenever he went shopping for parts. My dad is a plumber and was a super for an apartment building. I also used… Read More Rant 044
Kinda want to dye my hair for my official 32nd birthday. I say kinda because that requires me to buy the supplies and put in the work. Or pay a professional (or student), which is a very tedious process. The paying someone else part is more on the trying to find someone i trust enough… Read More Health 070
Found out the reason for my sleep and digestion issues I been having for the past few days. Along with why i was gaining weight, even when I have been sticking to my diet. I havenāt been drinking enough water. The day before yesterday, or at least the extreme AM of yesterday, I looked up… Read More Health 068
Iām almost at my goal for the month of losing 5 lbs. Iām not trying to do a drastic weight loss. My aim to do it to where itās easy to maintain. Starting weight for this month was 242.4. Current weight as of today is 237.8 lbs. Thatās a 4.6 lbs difference. Iām very excited… Read More Health 067
Some reason whatās keeping me motivated to stick to my weight loss and health journey is watching commentary on āmy 600 pound lifeā and people discussing the delusion of those in āFat Acceptanceā. But, hey. If being reminded where I could have been is whatās keeping me on my path to not get there, then… Read More Health 065
I canāt take it anymore. I been a very good boy but those damn cakes at the supermarket been calling my name. For goodness sake the last time I had cake was during my birthday week, when I tested out recipes leading to celebrate my birthday. But I canāt take it any longer and itās… Read More Health 064
Sometimes when I feel down on myself I look back on when I decided to become sober (alcohol). Which Iām reaching my 3rd year anniversary on May 9th. Because it puts into perspective how far I came. Such as in 2023 I reached my heaviest at 270 lbs. But with lots of hard work, as… Read More Health 062
Besides my perfectionism holding me back, Iām starting to think that my fear of injury is also making it difficult to make any progress in my health journey. Especially since Iām constantly convincing myself Iām not ready for something because I could get hurt if done wrong. Itās even more apparent since Iām doing this… Read More Health. Rant 042
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