As Pride Month arrives, let’s commemorate those from our past and present, while striving for a better tomorrow. This month, rooted in the fight against hatred, inequality, and prejudice, honors those who battled for our right to express our identities and love openly. It’s a time to support our loved ones and those struggling to… Read More Pride 2026
As the clouds of memories starts to encloseThe fog of sorrow formFrom the depths of mindAnd heartWhere the valley of lost are remembered Whispers of past one wish to forgetThe cruelty of a bloodline one sharesWords of selfishness and worthlessAre spat at thyWhen in truthYou given your very soulTo a beast that holds no shame… Read More Poor But Not Broken
I’m walking right now, and I decided to just talk for a bit. No real reason, just letting my thoughts move while my feet do. Maybe this becomes a vlog later, maybe it stays a voice memo, but what’s been on my mind is language—how people speak, how they express themselves, how communication shifts depending… Read More Walk and Talk
As I’m putting the slides together for the vector half of this month’s Patreon tutorial, I’m finding it a bit… daunting. Not because I’m uncertain about how to structure it so that it’s accessible to anyone at any skill level. The daunting part is trying to find a balance between explaining things at a basic level… Read More Teaching
I left New York City due to multitude of reasons. Almost 20 years of no true vacation, dysfunctional family life, going straight through school and into the workforce without a break. My final mental break was during my call center job in 2019. Then Covid happened and I was stuck with my family with no… Read More Health 082
I’m so ready to leave this hell hole of Grants Pass! But first I need to get through my top surgery next month. After that I can go full force to return to NYC. I need out of this death trap!At that my Grant Pass apartment complex was a rush build! The first 2 weeks… Read More Rant ###
Been slowly adjusting my schedule and routine back to NYC time zone. I even play NYC white noise, which has been helping me sleep better.It feels nice to be back my NYC routine, even though I’m still in the middle of nowhere Grants Pass. But after surgery next month, I got a plan to try… Read More Health 081
The last time I took a vacation, a true vacation was after 3rd grade. From 4th grade through college to all my jobs until Covid (2019) and my final collapse (2021).My 4 years in GP is actually the first true vacation I’ve taken in years.At that I’m turning 33 in January.
I’m ready to return home to NYC. Even people who are burnt out still manage to get through it all in nyc. I survived a call center for 2 months before I finally cracked. Yet I was willing to work for the nyc DMV if wasn’t for the temporary job placement of 3 months. I… Read More Health 079
Once again I’m rewriting my resume. Mainly so I can hopefully land a remote job in NYC. I would love to move back but I need a plan first. Either way, wish me luck.
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