I’m trying to keep it together after an ordeal that’s been happening for a few months. Theoretically for as long as I lived in Grants Pass Oregon. This ordeal is more emotionally draining and not something that I feel should be ranted constantly on. I have mentioned a few times of what’s happening, but what occurred recently pissed me off.

Nothing like spending time with people who makes fun of my passion for my home city of New York, and then turns around fantasizing about eventually moving out there. Granted I complain A LOT. Heck, I am very much aware my level of emotional intensity when writing can come off like I’m an absolute crybaby. Writing has always been an emotional release for someone like me who grew up forced to physically suppress my emotions.

With that out the way, there’s a HUGE difference between fantasy and reality. I can easily compare and complain about my living situation in Grants Pass compared to New York City. But at the end of the day the only thing that can improve my living situation is having a vehicle. If I had that 95% of my complaints about Oregon would be nonexistent. Oregon is an amazing state. Grants Pass is an interesting town, just small.

But then these people complain about Grants Pass prices and think they’ll be better off in New York. At that, in mid-state New York, a few towns over from the capital. These people complain about people. We’re on fucking earth! There’s people EVERYWHERE!

There’s a difference between complaining about people and COMPLAINING ABOUT PEOPLE. There’s the outward aggressive complaint. Then the internal complaints. Nobody saying the complaint isn’t real, but for fucks sake you don’t have to scream and threaten people to their faces!

Then these people complain about summer and the sorry excuse for winter in Grants Pass. My issue with summer is that I’m exposed because I WALK everywhere. Besides that, the summer ain’t too bad. But these people would not be able to tolerate New England snowstorm season. Especially when these people were having a panic attack over the blizzard that happened in January this year, when it’s on the other side of the country. I’m mad that I wasn’t in NY to ENJOY the snowstorm. I LOVE winter!

There’s also the fact these people think they’ll get all their government paperwork done in a day. NOPE! That takes DAYS in NY! You have to visit YOUR assigned office. You need your paperwork in order. Deal with waiting lobbies that takes HOURS regardless when you get there. Especially if you’re in the wrong building.

And if they complain one more time on a $90 power bill imma flip out. That is chump change for ConEd. ConEdison will eat them alive with how much power they use. New York isn’t a desert or flat lands. Every state is the New England region will test you.

I’m just done with these people. Especially when they only view me as someone to take advantage of. Because what really been bugging me about their plans to move to NY is how one of them said after she moves and gets her shit together she’s gonna find a way to get me so I can WORK for her.

Clearly this ain’t a friendship but a toxic relationship where someone is taking advantage of my kindness. Especially when during the time I should have been recovering from 2 different surgeries, I ended up taking care of her. THE FUCK!