I’m almost at my goal for the month of losing 5 lbs. I’m not trying to do a drastic weight loss. My aim to do it to where it’s easy to maintain. Starting weight for this month was 242.4. Current weight as of today is 237.8 lbs. That’s a 4.6 lbs difference. I’m very excited… Read More Health 067
I love cooking and making stuff from scratch because for the brief time I become a kid again and have a blast making a mess. At that, the kind where I just don’t care because I’m enjoying myself. Best part, nobody is around to yell at me for the mess because it’s my kitchen! The… Read More Childlike Joy. Trauma Recovery 001
This is why I’m glad I was finally able to seek physical therapy for my back and pelvic floor. Since it help me give me a baseline on how I am and where I can improve. It’s one thing to try to learn all this on my own, and I’m very knowledgeable about a lot… Read More Health Rant 036
So… randomly I looked at the sizing of my shirts as I put them to wash, and I learned something amazing. My everyday shirts I wore for basically a year, big enough to fit comfortably but enough extra fabric it looked bigger than me, are all 3XL (and are men shirts). My Lane Bryant long… Read More Health 029
Just finished a 15 minute strength workout and I noticed something. When I was attempting to do some leg lifts, I felt out of control. Like it was easy to breathe and keep form, but something about it didn’t feel right. Almost like I was too relaxed and lacked focus. When dealing with weights and… Read More Physical Health 024
Was two minutes off to completing my 30 minutes workout, but I’m done. Which is all good. Today was extra hard, since I added extra types of exercise and finally moved from doing everything on the floor to full on standing. I finally progressed from “easy to get me to workout daily” to “doing the… Read More Physical Health 021
So… decided to take out the clothes from my closet for some unknown reason. I just did it. Now I’m trying to figure out what the he’ll am I going to do with them. Which some I was saving until I lost weight, since those tend to fit currently a bit tight. There’s also some… Read More Rant 027
So I had a fun thought this morning that I kept thinking about. So imma share it with you. … Since I’m gonna be put to sleep for my surgery I been absolutely terrified of the idea of such a thing. And as time progresses and I’m getting closer I’m slowly getting my brain ready… Read More Physical Health 014
I think quitting alcohol is much easier than overcoming my ED. In the sense that it’s easy to avoid alcohol when I’m broke, so it’s become easier to rationalize that I don’t need it. But when it comes to my ED I have to deal with food. Food is an important thing that is use… Read More Physical Health 012
Kinda wonder if I should have weighed myself yesterday since that would have been exactly 7 days from my last weight. Oh well. I could either go in denial about my weight gain or I can admit that I have been struggling not tracking everything, especially the late night snack. And last night was the… Read More Physical Health 010
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