If you had a time machine and could send just one message to your past self, what would it say? I wouldn’t spend a message, mainly because I had to go through what I went through to get to where I am now. No amount promises of happiness and peace will ever change what has… Read More Nothing
I’m trying to keep it together after an ordeal that’s been happening for a few months. Theoretically for as long as I lived in Grants Pass Oregon. This ordeal is more emotionally draining and not something that I feel should be ranted constantly on. I have mentioned a few times of what’s happening, but what… Read More Rant 006. A
I left New York City due to multitude of reasons. Almost 20 years of no true vacation, dysfunctional family life, going straight through school and into the workforce without a break. My final mental break was during my call center job in 2019. Then Covid happened and I was stuck with my family with no… Read More Health 082
I think I’m still not over my culture shock from moving from NYC to Grants Pass, OR. Especially when I dealt with my appointment last month in Portland, OR. I got excited about seeing skyscrapers and seeing a range of diversity of people. I got excited to see more than white ppl! Oh god! Do… Read More Health 078
Today’s goal is to work on a few chapters. Maybe chapter 2 of my DBZ fanfic. Which is something I’m not posting until I have finished 5 chapters.If I’m lucky I might even be able to personally draft up a few mockup side stories for a project I want to do, but don’t know if… Read More Goals for the day and week
Found out the reason for my sleep and digestion issues I been having for the past few days. Along with why i was gaining weight, even when I have been sticking to my diet. I haven’t been drinking enough water. The day before yesterday, or at least the extreme AM of yesterday, I looked up… Read More Health 068
A part of me wants to start something but the other part is calling it a waste of time. Like trying to wait for everything to line up but then when I get there will I still make excuses that it’s not perfect enough. One of those things of being a traumatized perfectionist. I can’t… Read More Trauma Recovery 003
My horrible emotions this past few days has made me gain 5 lbs. I’m close to not caring the rest of the month. But I can’t do that to myself. I gotta at least go from 244 to 240 by December 31th. At least close to 240. I’m not mad or disappointed, because I know… Read More Health 039
Just wanna vent. As much as I want to buy a new mattress next month, it’ll be super unreasonable for me to do so. Sure, my current mattress is pretty sunken in, but I can manage a little longer. But that’s not why it’ll be unreasonable to get a new mattress. I currently won’t be… Read More Health 033
