As the clouds of memories starts to encloseThe fog of sorrow formFrom the depths of mindAnd heartWhere the valley of lost are remembered Whispers of past one wish to forgetThe cruelty of a bloodline one sharesWords of selfishness and worthlessAre spat at thyWhen in truthYou given your very soulTo a beast that holds no shame… Read More Poor But Not Broken
I left New York City due to multitude of reasons. Almost 20 years of no true vacation, dysfunctional family life, going straight through school and into the workforce without a break. My final mental break was during my call center job in 2019. Then Covid happened and I was stuck with my family with no… Read More Health 082
I’m ready to return home to NYC. Even people who are burnt out still manage to get through it all in nyc. I survived a call center for 2 months before I finally cracked. Yet I was willing to work for the nyc DMV if wasn’t for the temporary job placement of 3 months. I… Read More Health 079
With my top surgery just a month away I’m feeling both excited and nervous. I’m super excited to finally get this done and within such a shorter time than I previously thought. Since the first initial intake appointment was for September of 2026 but ended up being done in August 2025. And the fact that… Read More Upcoming Top Surgery
I think I’m still not over my culture shock from moving from NYC to Grants Pass, OR. Especially when I dealt with my appointment last month in Portland, OR. I got excited about seeing skyscrapers and seeing a range of diversity of people. I got excited to see more than white ppl! Oh god! Do… Read More Health 078
As of this morning I’m back in the 230 range at 231.4 lbs. I’m not super upset. I’m more grateful that I can easily get back down into the high 220 range. After all, seeing how my weight does a roll coaster throughout the month I can’t let this discourage me. I just have to… Read More Health 75
What are the most important things needed to live a good life? A good mindset. One where you can recognize and accept you’ll have mistakes and bad days. While also appreciating the good days and when things goes right. Can’t have a rainbow without rain. Can’t appreciate snow without cold weather. And definitely can’t appreciate… Read More
I know it’s been a hot minute since I mentioned how I’m growing my hair out throughout my health journey. And I’m still impressed by how far I’ve came. Sure, I had a few down moments and so I cut my hair to match the energy. Which is also how I’m measuring my growth. Hair… Read More Health 073
Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you. Comfort me when dealing emotionally distress. Mainly my grandparents, and my dad when he takes me to the doctors growing up. And recently, my dad validating my decision to leave New York to better my life. Especially stating he’s happy I left my sisters… Read More Healing Journey ###
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