I don’t know how to describe it but I always feel like I’m home whenever I’m in a hardware store. Probably because I grew up in my dad’s shop, and went with him whenever he went shopping for parts. My dad is a plumber and was a super for an apartment building. I also used… Read More Rant 044
Kinda want to dye my hair for my official 32nd birthday. I say kinda because that requires me to buy the supplies and put in the work. Or pay a professional (or student), which is a very tedious process. The paying someone else part is more on the trying to find someone i trust enough… Read More Health 070
Found out the reason for my sleep and digestion issues I been having for the past few days. Along with why i was gaining weight, even when I have been sticking to my diet. I haven’t been drinking enough water. The day before yesterday, or at least the extreme AM of yesterday, I looked up… Read More Health 068
I’m almost at my goal for the month of losing 5 lbs. I’m not trying to do a drastic weight loss. My aim to do it to where it’s easy to maintain. Starting weight for this month was 242.4. Current weight as of today is 237.8 lbs. That’s a 4.6 lbs difference. I’m very excited… Read More Health 067
Some reason what’s keeping me motivated to stick to my weight loss and health journey is watching commentary on “my 600 pound life” and people discussing the delusion of those in “Fat Acceptance”. But, hey. If being reminded where I could have been is what’s keeping me on my path to not get there, then… Read More Health 065
What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings? Writing, art, and video games. Sometimes walking. I’m learning other coping skills, like exercising.
I can’t take it anymore. I been a very good boy but those damn cakes at the supermarket been calling my name. For goodness sake the last time I had cake was during my birthday week, when I tested out recipes leading to celebrate my birthday. But I can’t take it any longer and it’s… Read More Health 064
Sometimes when I feel down on myself I look back on when I decided to become sober (alcohol). Which I’m reaching my 3rd year anniversary on May 9th. Because it puts into perspective how far I came. Such as in 2023 I reached my heaviest at 270 lbs. But with lots of hard work, as… Read More Health 062
Besides my perfectionism holding me back, I’m starting to think that my fear of injury is also making it difficult to make any progress in my health journey. Especially since I’m constantly convincing myself I’m not ready for something because I could get hurt if done wrong. It’s even more apparent since I’m doing this… Read More Health. Rant 042
Today workout wasn’t planned, at least the weight part. But saw the weight room wasn’t super crowded, so took advantage of it. The room only started to get packed as I was leaving. Super glad I did some strength training after such a long time. Plus I was kinda surprised by how much I was… Read More Health ###
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