what is wrong
with me
everything and everyone
around me
is twist and turn
to the point
that I just scream

there’s one
light in a grey room
all around me
letters drips
screaming what’s wrong
with me

ugly
nothing
worthless piece of crap
no one cares
just another mouth to feed
everything I do is wrong

just as
the next word
was being written
a naked
girl is taking
her hand
and is writing
on the walls

everyone around me
is my enemy
friends are no one
everyone is laughing
at you

then after
she wrote the
last word
she turned her head
to me
and I then
noticed this
girl
is
ME!

How could
this be
then she fully
turns to me
and I can see
a hole
where her heart
is suppose to be
she is dirty
and then walks
to the next room

I followed her
into a bathroom
tube pouring out
red liquid
inside the tube
there’s a person
inside
and they keep changing
changing in flashes

each flash
went from
family members
to bullies
I wish could just leave me alone
then it changed to
me and stayed

I locked eyes
with myself
and threw-up
and ran back to
the other one

both the one
in the tube and
the one who
was writing
came into
the room
just then
they disappeared
and I felt
a sharp
go from
my chest
up and down my spine
then something was clawing
down my arms
to my wrist

but what I
spit up
is what really
scared
it was black and red
liquid pooled
that’s when
I finally looked down

I was the one
who’s ripped out
my own
HEART
it fit perfectly
in my right hand
and in my other
was a blade

there was a
huge cut
across my right wrist
and I could
feel my left
inching to do
something
all around me
I could hear
a voice screaming
DO IT
DO IT

next thing
I know
the blade’s tip
is on my neck
last thing
I knew
is a blade
went through
my neck
and my body
went numb

the room
goes black
with the last though

“Will anyone care
when I’m gone”