What is love
for I hear that word
all around me
in this hell hole
I call home

the very word brings
nothing but pain and
needles through my body

I hear that word
so many times
that I have learn to mock it
when I speak
I’ve grown annoyed
whenever that word is spoken
the very word
brings only hatred
and pain
the very people
who speaks it to me
makes me want to
violently ripped them
to pieces

I grown so use
to the feeling the word
has given me
that when I finally
thought someone was cute
or started to have strong
emotions for
all I wanted was to
destroy the very person
I did not know
how to handle
the emotions insides
because I grew
to understand that emotions
equal pain

I grew frustrated
when I started to feel warm
inside and I knew
what I was feeling
would only leave to pain
what happen next
was pain
again by another human being
what really hurt
the most
was that
I finally understood what
the word met
and at the end of it
I grew weak
and wanted to
rip my very heart out

such a word
should not even exist
inside because
the very word
is poison in my veins
but yet again
I have fallen
for another
human being
and for once
the word has yet
left a horrible taste

I have yet to
hope for something
to go right
without any painful
marks behind
I hope that
this human changes
the meaning of
such an evil word
for me
forever.