Anxiety?
Picking. I notice an imperfection and attack it, reasons why I don’t let my nails grow.

Frustration?
-at youngest niece and nephew
Yelling, and become very impatient. Right after that moment I’m back to playing with my demons, well they’re more like my tails
-family members
Yelling in my head, but outer expression other than a face
-at myself
Head down, screaming installs at myself in my head. Sometimes leads to suicidal thoughts, “sometimes”
-everything else
Make a face, gets super impatient, wanting to punch someone, sometimes agressive to a friend but play it off as if I’m playing  (I’m known to play very agressive, for a girl in my group of friends).

Suicidal thoughts?
Usually just sitting and trying to keep it in, i become numb or try blocking it out with music. I also draw, write. One time it got so bad that I burned my arm, multiple times.

Super sad/depress?
Sleep. At least in my dreams I’m happy – kinda. Even though I’ve somewhat started blocking my dreams, well when I’m overly sad I don’t dream.

Overall?
I’m somewhat messy, but i like order. I get anxious very easily, and super happy easily too. But sometimes I can’t so I fake a smile, a laugh just so I don’t have to hear my family reminding me to get over it when in reality it’s hard. I’m not confident, yet people call my personality very bubbly. I started this blog to share my work and thoughts, but sometimes it feels like therapy.