As I’m writing I face a very uncomfortable situation. I could easily avoid it or even work around it. But that’s also not me. You see, the most uncomfortable thing that I’m facing is writing about sex. In my fanfic, I have written sex scenes, but mainly focusing on the female part. My trouble lies in writing the male aspect of the whole thing. Ranging from describing male anatomy, to the sensations they feel. I have read adult books in hopes to be able to write these scenes and make them as believable as possible.
But the problem lies in the fact I’m an open lesbian female. I find that part of the male body disgusting. But I do believe in pushing through an uncomfortable scene, instead of completely cutting them away. How could I improve my writing, if I’m to write just about anything? My fanfic is base on a straight couple. In my book, I somehow wrote one of the main characters as a gay male. At that, the book wasn’t even supposed to be able him. But as I wrote he started to develop as a character, and I realize something.
Somehow this character brings more to the table than I give him credit for. I actually like him as a character. The fact that he’s gay makes him fit the role, I gave him, more of a stronger meaning. And so, I feel I just give him justice and write some of his sex scenes. No matter how uncomfortable I am. I have to write it. He deserves his happiness. Especially with the backstory, I gave him.
If I always back away from an uncomfortable situation, in my writing, my book would never get done. My writing would never improve. So, I have no choice but too uncomfortable to get to polish work, that feels whole and complete.
Thank you.
Update: Yesterday couldn’t get on WordPress. Also working on chapter 7.