Ever read something, and you think you got it, but you don’t? What about reading a whole sentence wrong? Or figuring out if you’re saying it correctly in your head? But really, it’s wrong.
I always struggled with reading comprehension. Even reading certain words can be hard. I could read a book. But I will always get stuck, try to skip what I don’t get, skim, or just put the book down. Other than my social anxiety, reading out loud is embarrassing. Mostly due to having to showcase my bad reading skills. But over time I have gotten better, due to practice. But doesn’t mean I still don’t struggle. I just have to reread multiple times, till I get it. But it’s so difficult when the words get mixed up, or I skipped a word.
Admitting this out loud is very stressful. How could I be a good writer, when I’m not even a good reader? Because of this difficulty, I miss so many of my writing mistakes when I edit. Because I simply wasn’t able to read it the way it should. But now there are applications to help me edit. This way I could focus more on the writing part. But of course, the moment I get to the editing, I would need to take my time.
To say I’m slow, would be an insult to those who can’t even read at all. No, my mind is just very fast. I can’t focus and get confused easily. But instead of slowing down, I speed up and get even more frustrated. I’m learning to take my time with things I struggle heavy with. And that what matters.

Thank you for reading.

Update: Working on chapter 8.