This month seems to be the hardest since I just seem to be gaining weight. At least for now, and I’m not gaining extremely. But it’s still very distressing. I weighed myself this morning and I’m 245 lbs. 😭
At this rate I’ll be lucky to lose 2 pounds before the 31st.

I know I shouldn’t mope and should give myself some grace due to my current circumstance, but it’s hard. But I’m trying really hard not to fall back to what happened during the summer where I just gave up for 2 months.

I really want to fully get back into my normal workout routine and such, but I’m forced to take it slow. Which isn’t helping my mental state. I’m such an all or nothing person that taking it easy is giving me anxiety. And when I’m anxious I tend to just “let go”.

I’m at least trying really hard to get back into my healthy eating habits, and adding more exercise daily. But it’s so painful slow. It doesn’t help that I been sitting more than I’m used to. Before getting into healthy habits I can say I sat a lot, barely moved about unless to take care of tasks.

Yet, I’m suffering from a case of cabin fever. I’m bored, depressed, under stimulated to the point of insanity. I really need to get out and about. I just hope I have enough energy to do so. This is super stressful and my body is showcasing it.