Watching a video on professional attire for a job interview and it triggered a funny conversation I had with my sister before. Since she’s constantly telling me how I should wear color and have a very professional outfits. She would always tell me to stop wearing black. Even though, black is one of the most… Read More Trauma Recovery 002
For someone who talks a lot online, especially in written format, I am dogshit terrified of doing so in video format. For goodness sake, I have made accounts just to make vlog like post. But my dumb truck of a behind thinks I’m gonna fuck up because I’m not interesting or with how I don’t… Read More Rant 030
I love cooking and making stuff from scratch because for the brief time I become a kid again and have a blast making a mess. At that, the kind where I just don’t care because I’m enjoying myself. Best part, nobody is around to yell at me for the mess because it’s my kitchen! The… Read More Childlike Joy. Trauma Recovery 001
Come home after surgery and all my knowledge of being mindful and calm kicked itself out the window. It took me practically 3 days to remember who tf I was and all my skills. Like SERIOUSLY! All my planning and getting myself together mentally went straight out the window the moment I got home. I… Read More Health 032
The countdown has started. In preparation I’m forcing myself to deal with eating very little and drinking a lot of water. Along with taking a laxative. All this is because tomorrow I have to deal with a liquid diet. Because Wednesday is my surgery. I’m super excited and nervous. Most of my nervousness comes from… Read More Health 031
Just finished a 15 minute strength workout and I noticed something. When I was attempting to do some leg lifts, I felt out of control. Like it was easy to breathe and keep form, but something about it didn’t feel right. Almost like I was too relaxed and lacked focus. When dealing with weights and… Read More Physical Health 024
Been dealing with stomach issues for a couple of days. This as been affecting my bathroom habits, and even the number on the scale. Like my weight has gone up a full pound in one week. Even though I know I been doing great in my active levels. So, the only thing that is likely… Read More Health 023
I definitely needed a rest day. Been having a rough cough, like the itchy throat dry cough one gets during allergy season. But you would think that me drinking tea, drinking water, and taking cough drops would help. Nope. So I really need to take a full on rest day, probably at least 2. And… Read More Health 022
As I’m working on book I keep thinking about my grocery list for this month. So far I’ve noticed I eat a lot of frozen veggies compared to fresh. Same goes for fruits. After a certain point I get sick of eating them. Like basically having to eat them before they go bad. But because… Read More Health 018
So… decided to take out the clothes from my closet for some unknown reason. I just did it. Now I’m trying to figure out what the he’ll am I going to do with them. Which some I was saving until I lost weight, since those tend to fit currently a bit tight. There’s also some… Read More Rant 027
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