I’m reviving a passion project to help bring awareness to my fundraising efforts for a laptop replacement. More info coming soon. Until then here’s the original post when I was starting the project. Keep in mind, things will be changed to reflect my current works. archiveofourown.org/works/33338557
So… my laptop has officially thrown in the towel. After years of barely holding on through writing, editing, and surviving entirely too many projects, it finally called it quits. Because of that, a lot of my projects, including new drafts, edits, and fanfics, are going to take longer to finish. I’m still able to work… Read More Quick Emergency Update
I’m happy but also sad at my weight loss journey. Sad mainly because it’s gonna cost me money to buy clothes to accommodate my body. Especially underwear! I can get away with shirts and pants for a long while before being forced to buy a whole new wardrobe. BUT underwear is where things gets uncomfortable… Read More Health 074
Kinda want to dye my hair for my official 32nd birthday. I say kinda because that requires me to buy the supplies and put in the work. Or pay a professional (or student), which is a very tedious process. The paying someone else part is more on the trying to find someone i trust enough… Read More Health 070
Sometimes when I feel down on myself I look back on when I decided to become sober (alcohol). Which I’m reaching my 3rd year anniversary on May 9th. Because it puts into perspective how far I came. Such as in 2023 I reached my heaviest at 270 lbs. But with lots of hard work, as… Read More Health 062
Besides my perfectionism holding me back, I’m starting to think that my fear of injury is also making it difficult to make any progress in my health journey. Especially since I’m constantly convincing myself I’m not ready for something because I could get hurt if done wrong. It’s even more apparent since I’m doing this… Read More Health. Rant 042
Not me trying to figure out my expenses for “what if” when I potentially start working again. Especially figuring out how would I afford Adobe CC to be able to work. … The whole point of me figuring out how I’ll be able to afford Adobe CC is due to it still being an industry… Read More Rant 035: Tech
Goal for 2025 is to stop being a perfectionist. From learning to not overthink the small details to giving myself the freedom to be the me when I used to be an alcoholic. The alcoholic me was free and just didn’t care. Was confident and just went for it. I want to be that without… Read More Trauma Recovery: 2025 Goals
My horrible emotions this past few days has made me gain 5 lbs. I’m close to not caring the rest of the month. But I can’t do that to myself. I gotta at least go from 244 to 240 by December 31th. At least close to 240. I’m not mad or disappointed, because I know… Read More Health 039
As I’m going through recovery I’m also getting better at accepting help. But what really makes me feel a sense of joy is that I noticed that for certain moments I’m reacting completely different than how the rest of my family would react. It brings me peace that there’s another part of me that is… Read More Rant 031
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