I’m just going to accept the fact I’m going to gain weight every July/August. Not because of lack of trying, but it’s either this or “personal deletion” tendencies. So, i rather take the 10 lb summer weight gain. At least that’s easier to deal with than the thoughts.

Sure, summer depression sucks. But at least I can admit I’m in my feels and yet not deep enough that my actions would have long term consequences. So, a little extra lack of control snacking is fine. Plus, leaving the apartment for walks is a death trap in summer heat

So, lack of ability to maintain my walking habit plus my eating habits not adjusting to a period of no exercise equals weight gain. I can tolerate this math. This math is better than the absolute delete button. Gotta take small wins.

Speaking of small wins. I recently had my first consultation for top surgery. It went amazingly, especially since it happened a year earlier than expected. Plus I am a candidate. My only concern is if I should wait until after I lose weight, because that was the original timeline.

BUT with this sudden shift I am willing to get it done earlier. Currently waiting to hear back to figure out surgeon and scheduling. By then I can decide firmly if I want it done sooner rather then later. Super excited about that.

Sure, the main downside is the travel to the hospital and back. Since it’s technically not an overnight surgery. Plus, dealing with planning the travel to get to surgery and how it’ll work to get back home. So, logistics is the main issue now. Either way top surgery is so close I can taste it!

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Side note: I’m still working on Guns and Heels. Just wanted to write the next 7 chapters so I can stay up to date when I do post. That way people aren’t waiting months.