As Pride Month arrives, let’s commemorate those from our past and present, while striving for a better tomorrow. This month, rooted in the fight against hatred, inequality, and prejudice, honors those who battled for our right to express our identities and love openly. It’s a time to support our loved ones and those struggling to… Read More Pride 2026
With my top surgery just a month away I’m feeling both excited and nervous. I’m super excited to finally get this done and within such a shorter time than I previously thought. Since the first initial intake appointment was for September of 2026 but ended up being done in August 2025. And the fact that… Read More Upcoming Top Surgery
Just as I was about to decline meeting with this Queen guy, I watched as Alex face lite up and waved her arm. “Queen!” When I turned around I was in complete awe. Walking into the bar was someone who walked as if he owned the place. From the limited visibility of the club lights,… Read More Guns and Heels. Chapter 3
I’m just going to accept the fact I’m going to gain weight every July/August. Not because of lack of trying, but it’s either this or “personal deletion” tendencies. So, i rather take the 10 lb summer weight gain. At least that’s easier to deal with than the thoughts. Sure, summer depression sucks. But at least… Read More Health 077
Currently really happy at the news I don’t gotta wait a year to start the process to get top surgery. My first appointment for consultation is next month. Super excited!
Besides my perfectionism holding me back, I’m starting to think that my fear of injury is also making it difficult to make any progress in my health journey. Especially since I’m constantly convincing myself I’m not ready for something because I could get hurt if done wrong. It’s even more apparent since I’m doing this… Read More Health. Rant 042
Last week I had my annual dentist appointment and to no surprise 5 teeth are in such bad shape that I’ll potentially lose them in the future. I’m at least hoping that day won’t be in the near future It’s not a shock to me because of my bad health history. Especially when parents didn’t… Read More Health 045
Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing something wrong for not having much to complain about my transition. Like how I interact with people or the body changes. A of things I do complain about is very shallow face value stuff. The kind of stuff that can easily be interpreted differently depending on the mood I’m… Read More Rant 023
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
Some reason I’m having an imaginary conversation that could happen during my annual gyn exam and it’s with my surgeon. The conversation goes into me telling him my excitement and how gender euphoric it’s going to be. Along with how I’m trying to calm my anxiety. … Saying how regardless of my gender I would… Read More Rant 017
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