As Pride Month arrives, let’s commemorate those from our past and present, while striving for a better tomorrow. This month, rooted in the fight against hatred, inequality, and prejudice, honors those who battled for our right to express our identities and love openly. It’s a time to support our loved ones and those struggling to… Read More Pride 2026
I’m just going to accept the fact I’m going to gain weight every July/August. Not because of lack of trying, but it’s either this or “personal deletion” tendencies. So, i rather take the 10 lb summer weight gain. At least that’s easier to deal with than the thoughts. Sure, summer depression sucks. But at least… Read More Health 077
Currently really happy at the news I don’t gotta wait a year to start the process to get top surgery. My first appointment for consultation is next month. Super excited!
Besides my perfectionism holding me back, I’m starting to think that my fear of injury is also making it difficult to make any progress in my health journey. Especially since I’m constantly convincing myself I’m not ready for something because I could get hurt if done wrong. It’s even more apparent since I’m doing this… Read More Health. Rant 042
Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing something wrong for not having much to complain about my transition. Like how I interact with people or the body changes. A of things I do complain about is very shallow face value stuff. The kind of stuff that can easily be interpreted differently depending on the mood I’m… Read More Rant 023
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
Some reason I’m having an imaginary conversation that could happen during my annual gyn exam and it’s with my surgeon. The conversation goes into me telling him my excitement and how gender euphoric it’s going to be. Along with how I’m trying to calm my anxiety. … Saying how regardless of my gender I would… Read More Rant 017
There are times where being self aware makes me look at my family in a way that has me questioning how the hell did I survive “that”. The same family who didn’t normalize speaking about hospital, protective sex, or anything that has to do with physical health and self care. Along with being so emotionally… Read More Rant 013
You ever been so lost and tired that you don’t recognize yourself no matter how hard you try. Where you keep wearing a mask but not sure how to take it off? Like I been so focused on saving money for potential rental deposit, since a lot of “assistances” wasn’t helping with that. I also… Read More Rant 007
Don’t get me wrong, I have very hyped games on my switch but my switch is just for my chill games. Nintendo has always been my gamer version of a good book. The sit down and vibe. Sometimes it’s the stand up and play, along with family competition. But my main baby, aka my wife,… Read More Rant 006. Gaming
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