Just breathe

Those thoughts

Aren’t you

 

Just smile

You’re doing

Just fine

 

It’s ok

To take breaks

Don’t push

Too hard

 

You’re not alone

It’ll pass…

 

Stop lying to yourself

Stop forcing that smile

You’re angry

You’re sad

You’re happy

You’re energetic

 

The scars are your reminded

You’re still alive

It stopped hurting when you bleed

But you have to admit

There’s no turning back

 

You were doing so well

You finally publish

Your first book

You’re sharing your work

And finally speaking

 

But why do you

Take one step forward

But always fall back

 

When are you

Going to throw away that knife

When are you

Going to stop looking for an escape

 

Death can’t save you

Your family or friends can’t save you

 

Stop torturing yourself

But that’s all you know

 

You lie to

Every therapist

You lie to yourself

 

When are you finally

Going to say it

Finally going to admit it

That you can’t do it

That all you want to do is scream

But you just can’t

Admit that you’re trap in a deadly cycle

 

Admit that you look up

Ways to die

Admit that

You’re unstable

And all you think about

Is a everything but yourself

Admit that

You have thought

About ending it

That you don’t care who’ll miss you

Because in the end

You hate yourself

 

You’re sick

But you don’t take care of yourself

You lie

To everyone

Even to yourself

 

Stop looking at the pill bottle

As your escape

And see it as your cure

 

People tell you all the time

You’re smart

You’re beautiful

Creative

Nice

Outgoing

Fun

But you just don’t believe it

Because you see your flaws

Actually

You don’t

 

You can’t even look in the mirror

Without seeing what you believe is true

That the person staring at you

Is ugly

Struggle to be creative

Truly lies about being smart

 

The person you keep staring at

You believe should be

Should be

Dead