I can’t take it anymore. I been a very good boy but those damn cakes at the supermarket been calling my name. For goodness sake the last time I had cake was during my birthday week, when I tested out recipes leading to celebrate my birthday.

But I can’t take it any longer and it’s driving me nuts. So, imma bake a cake today and get the urge out of me. Not only will be able to control the ingredients but also get to make enough to store away for a later date.

Imma try baking almost a blueberry muffin type cake. I just want something sweet and “technically” unhealthy for me. Sure, I could attempt to make a healthier version but what’s the fun in that.

The fact that I’m homemaking the cake is the best part of the whole experience. Because it means I have to work for my sweets. Instead of spending money on something that would make me feel guilty after eating.

If I bake my own cake I get to enjoy the process. And the cake is a delicious reward. (I said that twice, which kinda proves my point.)
Besides, I don’t do this often enough that I’m using up resources that could go into other meals. So a homemade treat once in a while is worth the effort.

Plus, I need to make up 300 calories to reach my calorie goals for today. I really don’t want to deal with the consequences for not doing so tomorrow. But I really don’t want to eat food (like a meal). So, what better way then eating something that is high in calories and is within my goals.

Not like it matters much, but my calorie deficit without exercise is 1354. And depending on the workouts I do throughout the day, my deficit goals can get as close to 2000. I have to workout close to 2+ hours to get there.

Today’s goal is 1751. Since I walked and did smaller workouts throughout the day.

Keep in mind I’m 5’5.

Before I did try a calorie deficit between 1480 to 1720. But I felt sick and like I was eating too much. It got worse when factoring my exercises. So I lower my “no exercise” calorie deficit and it seems to be working for me.

Especially since I’m trying to learn to eat properly and not go overboard with snacking. Which is an issue I suffer from for a very long time.

Funny enough, based on multiple calorie deficit calculators I should be in a 1480 to 1720 deficit to lose weight. But my issue with eating makes that number too high and difficult to maintain when I’m dealing with my lowest and/or highest of modes.

So keeping a super low starting deficit makes things easier for me. Because it encourages me to workout and eat properly. Instead of starting at a high deficit and feeling unmotivated to workout because it’ll cost the goal to be unreachable. If that makes any sense.