As of this moment I am safe. Yes, I was thinking suicide as I wrote this and was planning to, until I got to the end. It’s currently the only thing that’s making me debt killing myself. Trying to relieve some pain but deep down i really do with I could pull the plug to… Read More Poem: Suicide Note
Something that I been fighting with is the whole concept of reproduction or commonly knowns as sex. It’s not that I don’t enjoy sex to some degree, but it’s bizarre to me. It’s a concept that makes me question a lot about myself. Like why do I feel talking about it can be so awkward.… Read More Emotional
I think being home for so long is finally getting to me, plus other things. I was always a home type person and rarely went out. It’s that I have a few other problems now. Let me explain. It’s very hard for me to pick up new things. This is due to anxiety and my… Read More Pride. Day 16. Dry
I had finally got down to writing the ending to a fanfic project, College Crush. It took me so long to figure out how I was going to end it. Mostly because I suck at ending my stories. This is because I feeling I could write so much more, and could go forever. But the… Read More Short Endings & Thoughts
Recently I been recording myself talking as a form of therapy. Even though my older sister repeatedly said I should see a professional I still am not able to talk completely open. Even though I write so much about what’s going on it’s been a very long time since I’ve been to therapy. Also before… Read More Just talk
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