Recently I been recording myself talking as a form of therapy. Even though my older sister repeatedly said I should see a professional I still am not able to talk completely open. Even though I write so much about what’s going on it’s been a very long time since I’ve been to therapy. Also before I usually write and draw out my emotions instead of vocally saying what’s going on, plus I mentally giving myself a therapy session, so I thought before I saw a professional let me get some practice. Because even though I do write and tell friends I don’t always tell the whole story. I just finished doing a recording session before I started writing and I realized how much I was holding in, even to the point I’m still tearing up. Back to the point. I’m doing this not only to be more vocal with what’s going on in my head but also practice using my voice, because I don’t really talk much. I’m more of the quiet types and so I always found ways to express what’s going inside, just that now I kind of need to step out from my confer zone so I better myself as a human being.
Let me just say I love psychology. Even thou I could easily find out what are some of the psychological impacts that are effecting doesn’t always mean I could easily change. I do understand what’s wrong with me and I can easily pin point where a lot of my emotional stress is coming, but knowing this doesn’t always help. So me being more vocal about this might help me more than me continually thinking about it instead of taking any steps to change.
Also on a side note I’ve been working out with my dad. I love running and walking I just hate being in one place. So I should and I have to just take a jog everyday to also release some stress.