As I’m working on Soulmates for Wattpad, I started thinking about something. I have been thinking about my passion project Red Dragons. When I was beginning to write the second book, I ended up writing about the absolute beginning. Before the events of the first book. I ended up scraping in favor of continuing the first book timeline.

So, it got me thinking if I should post the before The Red Dragon novels to Wattpad. But continue the Redd Dragon series of the current events as a book on Amazon. Or if I shouldn’t even be thinking that. Would it be better to have my writing across multiple platforms? Or stay to one? And just have one project for one site, and Red Dragons should stay to Amazon.

But what if I do post the beginning timeline on Wattpad to build an audience for my book. I’m not sure about that. I guess I’m self-doubting again like I always do. Maybe I’m overthinking about everything. I do that a lot. Then thoughts about how I’m not good enough and never will start sinking in.

I have a long history of these thoughts. I’m even suicidal and suffer for many years with many emotional issues. Years of therapy and trying to stay in control is hard. The fact I finally put up a book to publish is a significant accomplishment for me. Even posting any form of writing and art online. Admitting these things are both hard and upsetting.

Maybe I should just do it and see what happens. Everyone tells me that I should just do it, but I’m scared. If it was that easy to just do something, then I wouldn’t really be here to write about this. It’s easier to shut down, instead of feeling. But I have to fight through it, every chance I get. While I still have a moment of bravery, I should do something before I go into my drowning moments.