I got to admit, I’m kinda surprised that after 6 days since surgery the surgery sights aren’t as bruised and swollen I thought they’ll be. Sure, I’m extremely grateful. Especially when I know my abdomen area heals better than the rest of my body. But I can’t deny I’m shocked with how everything is looking.

It’s one of those things where I still can’t believe I really went through a major surgery that took out my organs. From how I feel find enough to exercise, but have to keep reminding myself that’s a huge bad idea. To how I almost fell back into my sleeping habits, but had to fight it because I’ll injure myself.

What’s keeping me grounded in the fact I had surgery and not healed yet is how much my legs hurt faster than normal. I’m forced to take longer breaks than I’m accustomed to. I have to be mindful how I sit because I’ll feel pain, and the pain gets worse if I sit a certain way.

There’s also the itch that just below the surgical sight. I want to scratch to my heart content but if I do I’ll end up scratching my stitches. Then there’s how I have to be careful with my clothes because I can feel when they rub against my stitches and it triggers an itch response.

I’m shocked at the surface visual of my surgery, but thankfully all the other sensations are keeping me grounded. Especially when I want to get back to sleeping without pants and a shirt. But if I do that I run the risk of mindlessly scratching my stitches which will lead to an infection. No thanks.

But my chest is being extra annoyed during this whole thing. Oh well. These flash bags are next. So might as well enjoy the last year or so of being annoyed by nature paperweights. lol