I have grown Weak and blind To what goes on around me I have let myself Get hurt I have escaped Into a hole That I never wanted to leave But then came along Another soul Where I for once Saw a light At the end of the darkness But it was lies And the… Read More I have grown blind

What is love for I hear that word all around me in this hell hole I call home the very word brings nothing but pain and needles through my body I hear that word so many times that I have learn to mock it when I speak I’ve grown annoyed whenever that word is spoken… Read More Love?

as i sit in this chair fighting back everything inside again trying to find the thing that keeps me whole but as i continue on this path i’m left again barely able to breathe the last ounce of my strength leaving me with every word i am reminded about the war raging inside about the… Read More drowning

When I take all emotions from any issue I realize what’s the biggest problem. Right now I’m doing an internship that seems to have little to do with design and I’m being paid way too little. But I like the place and I see myself there for at least a year or more. Of course… Read More What to do what to do?

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Fell asleep at 3 something in the morning and woke up around 1. I’m still feeling a little sick, but better than yesterday. I have a lot to do today. I not only have to design issue 4 but also write the art review section. It sounds a lot but I could do it. I… Read More Sunday

I do have a great goal and it does involve money. My money goal is to reach about $1500 by December 24, I have marked that day as my “get out of hell” day. I’m going to have to pull out all the stops to be able to pull off something this big. I don’t… Read More Freedom from hell

Finish talking to my career adviser about my internship and how I’m being paid very little and not doing much of design work. Even though she has a point, but it’s not all about money. I just happened to start pretty much almost the end of the quarter and they about to sit down with… Read More All about money

Nothing big. It was full of taking stuff back and forth between two offices. Well they’re in the middle of making sales to a client, so it does make more sense why I have yet done any designs or learn much of designs from them. Supposedly it’ll end by next week, so I’ll take my… Read More Internship Day 7 & 8

back into a corner where I must think about my actions even thou I have done nothing wrong so I sit there wondering about anything my thoughts wonder off into the subject of my older sisters and how much I wish I could should them how much they hurt me I start to get angry… Read More Nightmares Chapter 4: the corner of insanity part 2