Know what’s the worst thing I heard growing up suicidal. Constantly being told to think about other people and how they would feel. Not once did anyone validate my feelings and tried to speak to me about why I felt that way. Making it ever so clear that I wasn’t even important enough to be… Read More Suicide
Know what sucks about constantly dealing with suicidal ideations and urges, is that I’m constantly avoiding medication. From pain meds to psychaitris meds. Especially because that was always my way out. Too many times coming close to overdose. Even worse when going through the process to be prescribed heavy meds to go through with finally… Read More Pills
I’m getting tired of people being surprised I haven’t heard or seen certain movies or bands. Especially when it feels like I’m being shamed for not knowing. They don’t get that I was extremely sheltered and isolated my whole life. At that, I’m much younger. Even my own older siblings shamed me for not knowing… Read More July 28, 2022
I am grateful to these people who welcomed me into their home. Especially everything I have been through and it was a huge change for all of us. But this isn’t my home. It’s almost like living with my abusive family, just that I feel safe. I’m no longer dealing with mental and physical abuse.… Read More Home
This is just strange. I can’t sleep nor think. And whatever thoughts I do have are about my book characters. Is this a way to help cope with the true emotions I have been trying to avoid? I finally am going to see a therapist, in Oregon. But as I spoke during my assessment it… Read More Thoughts
After leaving my family back in September I finally got a journal again. Maybe now I can process my thoughts and emotions better. Since moving a lot has happened and it was difficult to adjust. Especially to my new environment and fighting my environmental programming. I’m still in great disbelief in what I accomplished in… Read More The Abandon Child
As of this moment I am safe. Yes, I was thinking suicide as I wrote this and was planning to, until I got to the end. It’s currently the only thing that’s making me debt killing myself. Trying to relieve some pain but deep down i really do with I could pull the plug to… Read More Poem: Suicide Note
I think being home for so long is finally getting to me, plus other things. I was always a home type person and rarely went out. It’s that I have a few other problems now. Let me explain. It’s very hard for me to pick up new things. This is due to anxiety and my… Read More Pride. Day 16. Dry
As I’m working on Soulmates for Wattpad, I started thinking about something. I have been thinking about my passion project Red Dragons. When I was beginning to write the second book, I ended up writing about the absolute beginning. Before the events of the first book. I ended up scraping in favor of continuing the… Read More A little Hiccup
Keep in mind that I am not a professional in psychology. … Part 1 covers Goku at ages 12 to 18. … In the original Dragon Ball is where we introduce to a 12-year old Goku. During our first meeting with him, we can tell several things about him. From the start, he does not… Read More Dragon Ball Character Profile Analysis: Kakarot (Son, Goku). Part 1
