I’m getting tired of people being surprised I haven’t heard or seen certain movies or bands. Especially when it feels like I’m being shamed for not knowing.

They don’t get that I was extremely sheltered and isolated my whole life. At that, I’m much younger. Even my own older siblings shamed me for not knowing about the shows & music they grew up with.

It’s extremely painful to act ok when all I feel like an outcast everywhere I go. Constantly being reminded how isolated I was and how everyone kept trying to force me to older than I really am.

How is anyone supposed to be ok when they’re have no ability to state they don’t know, when being shamed is the same response every time?
How am I supposed to heal from trauma when I’m surrounded by the same things that traumatized me growing up?

How am I supposed to learn the ability to speak when I’m constantly dealing with not being heard? Especially when simple interactions are hard to tell between genuine express vs it’s going to become aggressive.

The people I grew thinking were amazingly kind were also the people who hurt me the most. I can’t handle all this noise!