After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
Some reason I feel my first aid supplies is lacking. Along with over the counter medicine. … OTC: pain relief (off brand Tylenol), nasel relief (allergy nose pump), theraflu. First aid: anitiseptic cleaning spray, 3% hydrogen peroxide (spray), 70% isopropyl alcohol (rubbing alcohol), ice cold analgesic gel (menthol 1.25%)[like iceyhot but not], 50 spf sunscreen,… Read More Rant 018
Have you ever read something and your instant reaction is “how out of touch are you” and/or “how old are you” Like not in a disrespectful way but in a “what the hell am I reading” way. When it comes to articles and reports there’s a certain tone that is “almost” ageless. But certain words… Read More Rant 016
Don’t laugh too hard but I really realized that I can write in MY OWN books. Like books that I brought. At that, it wasn’t until college that I learned I can customize my sketchbook and anything that I owned. lol It feels nice not to have someone scream and shame me for not keeping… Read More Rant 015
There are times where being self aware makes me look at my family in a way that has me questioning how the hell did I survive “that”. The same family who didn’t normalize speaking about hospital, protective sex, or anything that has to do with physical health and self care. Along with being so emotionally… Read More Rant 013
Ok, yesterday I doubled check my first aid supplies and realized that I practically have all the necessary supplies. From bandages, both rubbing alcohol and peroxide for cleaning wounds, cleaning surrenders, and pressure wraps. All I’m really missing are gauze, and more surgical tape. I just finished getting a small set of gauze from Dollar… Read More Rent 011
I sometimes wonder why I’m always in the wrong. From the why I feel, my thoughts, my beliefs, my needs, just about anything that has to do with me. Today I just feel so inadequate and if I even dare try to express that why someone things always go one or two ways. One (typically… Read More Rant 010
Maybe I do have a problem and should at least try to express it. Like I’m very accustomed to not being a priority in anyone’s lives. I try my best to be understanding that life happens and things just comes up. But at the same time, that same pattern is what led me to having… Read More Second thought
Even though the chains are broken,I still have the collar and markings of my imprison. I still carry the weight of my chainsand can still see the bars on my windows. So, even though I’m miles away and chains are gone, my body still remembersevery last detail. No matter how much I run and try… Read More Poem: untitled
You ever been so lost and tired that you don’t recognize yourself no matter how hard you try. Where you keep wearing a mask but not sure how to take it off? Like I been so focused on saving money for potential rental deposit, since a lot of “assistances” wasn’t helping with that. I also… Read More Rant 007
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