Kinda wonder if I should have weighed myself yesterday since that would have been exactly 7 days from my last weight. Oh well. I could either go in denial about my weight gain or I can admit that I have been struggling not tracking everything, especially the late night snack. And last night was the… Read More Physical Health 010
I feel like absolute shit today. Especially after everything I ate today. Like I ate heavy meals and it’s really affecting me.I been trying to balance out at least 1 huge meal, and about 2 snacks between meals so I can have light meals.This way my calorie intake evens out so I can manage my… Read More Physical Health 008
Have you ever forgot you were eating and stopped, then have a mini panic attack when you realize you were eating so you try to finish? Or have you tried eating your food as fast as possible so you can get over the fact you have to eat? Like it’s weird. On a good day… Read More Rant 026
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
Some reason I feel my first aid supplies is lacking. Along with over the counter medicine. … OTC: pain relief (off brand Tylenol), nasel relief (allergy nose pump), theraflu. First aid: anitiseptic cleaning spray, 3% hydrogen peroxide (spray), 70% isopropyl alcohol (rubbing alcohol), ice cold analgesic gel (menthol 1.25%)[like iceyhot but not], 50 spf sunscreen,… Read More Rant 018
Have you ever read something and your instant reaction is “how out of touch are you” and/or “how old are you” Like not in a disrespectful way but in a “what the hell am I reading” way. When it comes to articles and reports there’s a certain tone that is “almost” ageless. But certain words… Read More Rant 016
Don’t laugh too hard but I really realized that I can write in MY OWN books. Like books that I brought. At that, it wasn’t until college that I learned I can customize my sketchbook and anything that I owned. lol It feels nice not to have someone scream and shame me for not keeping… Read More Rant 015
There are times where being self aware makes me look at my family in a way that has me questioning how the hell did I survive “that”. The same family who didn’t normalize speaking about hospital, protective sex, or anything that has to do with physical health and self care. Along with being so emotionally… Read More Rant 013
Ok, yesterday I doubled check my first aid supplies and realized that I practically have all the necessary supplies. From bandages, both rubbing alcohol and peroxide for cleaning wounds, cleaning surrenders, and pressure wraps. All I’m really missing are gauze, and more surgical tape. I just finished getting a small set of gauze from Dollar… Read More Rent 011
I sometimes wonder why I’m always in the wrong. From the why I feel, my thoughts, my beliefs, my needs, just about anything that has to do with me. Today I just feel so inadequate and if I even dare try to express that why someone things always go one or two ways. One (typically… Read More Rant 010
