Nothing like feeling extremely insecure about body parts and such to where you just want to get rid of everything and build yourself a new body. But not all that is possible.If it was I would replace my skin for one that isn’t damaged by years of skin picking. Which is impossible. All I can… Read More New year ramble
3 days of no meds really hit hard. Like it made my depression hard to get out of and everything effects me worse. I’m glad I finally on meds that help me function to where my depression doesn’t make me numb to everything. It’s terrifying when I would get so numb that the only way… Read More The Right Medication
As I’m jointing down my to do list for the next day I made an interesting self discovery. The way I talk about myself and others is very different. So much that I never once thought about it until today. I don’t refer to my anatomy the same way I refer other people. I can… Read More Gender Dysphasia
As I’m struggling to bring myself to buy new clothes, I’m constantly cycling back to the same argument. That either, I have plenty of clothes and that I should hold off until I lose weight and have my place. While the other side of the argument is slowly based on the notion that I’m not… Read More Clothes Trauma
As I’m getting closer to starting HRT the more it’s sinking in things that should have been clear signs I was trans. Signs that pointed out if I had the knowledge and privilege to start transitioning I would have begun before puberty. I have written blogs about my childhood dream of having a gender pill… Read More Transitioning
As I’m thinking about it doing HRT before the removal of certain body parts is a much safer way to go, for me at least. Instead of the shock my body would face when taking out the shining actors would be painful. To suddenly have an organ that produces ripped out without preparing the body… Read More Transitioning
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