As I’m thinking about it doing HRT before the removal of certain body parts is a much safer way to go, for me at least. Instead of the shock my body would face when taking out the shining actors would be painful. To suddenly have an organ that produces ripped out without preparing the body would be an intense shock to the body. Like my body would have to adjust with no warning.

At least with HRT before hand would ease my body before having my reproductive organs removed. Now I see why doctors recommend HRT before doing any gender affirming surgery. More on the slowly easing the body before doing any sudden changes. Because mentally I’m already ready to go through surgery but my body is not. This is where I have to be extremely considerate and careful with my physical self.

I already respect people who goes through the process because I understand it’s a challenge to start and keep going. But I have been looking at it more as a social and mental concept. Since I had been struggling for years if I would have to stay a female my whole life and keep playing as a shell of a person. I never thought it was possible to physically change.

Mostly due to my upbringing and how taboo talking about health, especially around hospital, surgery, and health issues. Not to mention how difficult it was to communicate with doctors and therapist. So, after I slowly accepted myself and moved out to finally heal I’m able to proudly say all the things I couldn’t before.

I have always been male. I always hated the parts of my body that said otherwise. And for once a therapist and doctor didn’t try to forced me to change my mind about how I never want children.

All the questions I’ve gotten about starting to transitions seem pointless me. All the side effects of transitioning is not a big deal. Some are actually a huge bonus.

“What if you miss your large chest?”
Male drag queens.

“What if you want children one day?”
I never wanted kids. So no problem off my back.

“You’ll go through menopause.”
Was going to one day regardless. At least this one is by choice.

“Grow hair? Hair falling out?”
I’m already hairy, don’t care. And what are wigs for?

“Fat changing locations?”
I’m already aiming for a healthy lifestyle, so fat is not a problem.