Just found out that in April my health insurance is no longer going to cover my gym membership. Which was the only way I was able to afford going to the gym. I’m not completely upset or disappointed. I’m more at a loss, but I always had a feeling this might one day happen.

Let alone how my mood tends to change. Not to mention how out of the way it is to go to the gym. Which ruins my well crafted daily routine. So, back to figuring out Plan A again. Which was always the goal of a kind of at home gym.

I do have resistance bands and a few instructional programs to follow. Sure, my current living situation doesn’t have the room for workouts that requires full mobility. Which leaves me in a too stagnant state.

This is not including how my energy levels changes drastically when dealing with going to appointments, running errands, and situations that requires physical activity. So I’m left wondering how would I be able to do anything once my gym membership ends in April.

I do have the option to speak with the gym and would be given a discount for personals who had memberships through health insurance. But my experience at the gym has been overwhelming and stressful. Even though I finally got comfortable enough to move into the weight area. Yet, it’s still very uncomfortable and difficult to focus.

My best option would be to have my membership cancelled once the insurance no longer pays for it. For starters, it’ll give me a chance to figure out my routine at home. There’s also the possibility of finally having the push I needed to go for hikes.

I have been stretched thin by trying to attempt so many things at once. Been trying to figure out my eating habits, on top of not having full range due to living situations. Trying to get into multiple activities to keep myself active, such as Emotional Skills Group. I’m soon going to start therapy again, which takes a huge toll on me.

In my case, I need a workout routine that flows smoothly with my overall routine and current situation. It’s very difficult for anyone to workout when they have a lot on their plate. When they don’t have the space to exercise. When their energy levels fluctuate so much that it’s unpredictable. When being around people is so overwhelming that they can’t focus on the task at hand.

It’s not that I’m trying to make excuses on why I can’t workout. But a persons’ situation tends to dictate how a person is able to exercise.

I got so much to think about. Not just the whole gym thing, but also my housing situation. There’s also my health, from physical to mental to emotional. I’m in a state of stagnant change that I can’t tell sometimes. Especially when something does change it would happen so quickly I’m not able to adjust accordingly. But at the same time everything else seems to stay still. It’s very frustrating and confusing.