As Pride Month arrives, let’s commemorate those from our past and present, while striving for a better tomorrow. This month, rooted in the fight against hatred, inequality, and prejudice, honors those who battled for our right to express our identities and love openly. It’s a time to support our loved ones and those struggling to… Read More Pride 2026
With my top surgery just a month away I’m feeling both excited and nervous. I’m super excited to finally get this done and within such a shorter time than I previously thought. Since the first initial intake appointment was for September of 2026 but ended up being done in August 2025. And the fact that… Read More Upcoming Top Surgery
Currently really happy at the news I don’t gotta wait a year to start the process to get top surgery. My first appointment for consultation is next month. Super excited!
Besides my perfectionism holding me back, I’m starting to think that my fear of injury is also making it difficult to make any progress in my health journey. Especially since I’m constantly convincing myself I’m not ready for something because I could get hurt if done wrong. It’s even more apparent since I’m doing this… Read More Health. Rant 042
This is why I’m glad I was finally able to seek physical therapy for my back and pelvic floor. Since it help me give me a baseline on how I am and where I can improve. It’s one thing to try to learn all this on my own, and I’m very knowledgeable about a lot… Read More Health Rant 036
Come home after surgery and all my knowledge of being mindful and calm kicked itself out the window. It took me practically 3 days to remember who tf I was and all my skills. Like SERIOUSLY! All my planning and getting myself together mentally went straight out the window the moment I got home. I… Read More Health 032
Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing something wrong for not having much to complain about my transition. Like how I interact with people or the body changes. A of things I do complain about is very shallow face value stuff. The kind of stuff that can easily be interpreted differently depending on the mood I’m… Read More Rant 023
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
There are times where being self aware makes me look at my family in a way that has me questioning how the hell did I survive “that”. The same family who didn’t normalize speaking about hospital, protective sex, or anything that has to do with physical health and self care. Along with being so emotionally… Read More Rant 013
As I’m jointing down my to do list for the next day I made an interesting self discovery. The way I talk about myself and others is very different. So much that I never once thought about it until today. I don’t refer to my anatomy the same way I refer other people. I can… Read More Gender Dysphasia
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