With recently speaking to my nephew again and one of my older sisters, I’m feeling very strange. Plus, the news that one of my aunts died and getting in contact with my cousin over it. Along with speaking with one of my nieces. All these things back to back has me on edge. Not to… Read More Feeling
Just had a thought. Maybe I don’t like hiking and the outdoors the way I thought I did. There can be a much deeper reason behind such desires. Like my longing, since childhood, of wanting to escape. The deep urge of running away from my family. That could be the reason I looked to nature… Read More Just maybe…
Something that I been fighting with is the whole concept of reproduction or commonly knowns as sex. It’s not that I don’t enjoy sex to some degree, but it’s bizarre to me. It’s a concept that makes me question a lot about myself. Like why do I feel talking about it can be so awkward.… Read More Emotional
I think being home for so long is finally getting to me, plus other things. I was always a home type person and rarely went out. It’s that I have a few other problems now. Let me explain. It’s very hard for me to pick up new things. This is due to anxiety and my… Read More Pride. Day 16. Dry
Just breathe Those thoughts Aren’t you Just smile You’re doing Just fine It’s ok To take breaks Don’t push Too hard You’re not alone It’ll pass… Stop lying to yourself Stop forcing that smile You’re angry You’re sad You’re happy You’re energetic The scars are your reminded You’re still alive… Read More Just Breathe
as i sit here watching the hours fly by my limbs feeling heavy and my chest is aching i look at the pill bottle beside me with blurring vision trying to read the distribution wanting to know how many will it take to numb the pain and be able to wake from this nightmare the… Read More I’m Dying
Recently I been recording myself talking as a form of therapy. Even though my older sister repeatedly said I should see a professional I still am not able to talk completely open. Even though I write so much about what’s going on it’s been a very long time since I’ve been to therapy. Also before… Read More Just talk
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