As I’m struggling to bring myself to buy new clothes, I’m constantly cycling back to the same argument. That either, I have plenty of clothes and that I should hold off until I lose weight and have my place. While the other side of the argument is slowly based on the notion that I’m not… Read More Clothes Trauma
As I’m getting closer to starting HRT the more it’s sinking in things that should have been clear signs I was trans. Signs that pointed out if I had the knowledge and privilege to start transitioning I would have begun before puberty. I have written blogs about my childhood dream of having a gender pill… Read More Transitioning
As I’m thinking about it doing HRT before the removal of certain body parts is a much safer way to go, for me at least. Instead of the shock my body would face when taking out the shining actors would be painful. To suddenly have an organ that produces ripped out without preparing the body… Read More Transitioning
As I’m cleaning my room a few thoughts keep crossing my mind. I’m practicing having a full argument over how I won’t get my work noticed because I don’t advertise enough. Or how I don’t ask for help when I need it. Let alone how I treat everyone around me. The more I thought on… Read More 9.23.2022
It’s such a great feeling to finally express that I was never female and that I’m male. Especially expressing that me saying I’m non-binary for so long was just me trying hard to accept I was born female. Almost like how I made every justification to call myself bisexual when that’s not true. I had… Read More
I’m excited that I’m going to be speaking with a professional about my gender dysphasia. As I’m thinking about this I’m left recalling a lot of things. Like how I always mention to people that I am a male that is in a female body. And how it took me into adulthood to find out… Read More Pure bliss
More reasons to get a full hysterectomy. Sure, I never wanted my reproductive organs. But it’s nice to know that it’s scientifically proven that these organs are damaging my health. Where no form of diet can improve my condition. Making it a must that I do receive surgery. It’s nice to have health issues that… Read More PCOS
Just had a thought. Maybe I don’t like hiking and the outdoors the way I thought I did. There can be a much deeper reason behind such desires. Like my longing, since childhood, of wanting to escape. The deep urge of running away from my family. That could be the reason I looked to nature… Read More Just maybe…
This is from a gender questionnaire I answered. … • How do I define gender? What does gender mean to me? Gender is a energy we all have. It’s like colors. Energy and colors changes through life and seasons. We can be one color or many, and we can be different shades of a color.… Read More What does gender mean to me
This is from a gender questionnaire I answered. … • How do I define gender? What does gender mean to me? Gender is a energy we all have. It’s like colors. Energy and colors changes through life and seasons. We can be one color or many, and we can be different shades of a color.… Read More What does gender mean to me
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