Was two minutes off to completing my 30 minutes workout, but I’m done. Which is all good. Today was extra hard, since I added extra types of exercise and finally moved from doing everything on the floor to full on standing. I finally progressed from “easy to get me to workout daily” to “doing the… Read More Physical Health 021
So after taking a few pics today it made me think that I should wait until I reach past 235 lbs before buying new clothes. At least new everyday clothes. As of this morning I am 245 lbs. Just need to lose 3 more pounds before my surgery and I’ll be at my estimated goal.… Read More Health 019
Post as I worked out for the second day in a row. … Day 2 of the MMA workout and I made it to 10 minutes, but I need a break. Doesn’t help I feel sore and walked an hour this morning. But I’m still gonna get through the full 30 minutes, even if it… Read More Physical Health 003
Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing something wrong for not having much to complain about my transition. Like how I interact with people or the body changes. A of things I do complain about is very shallow face value stuff. The kind of stuff that can easily be interpreted differently depending on the mood I’m… Read More Rant 023
I think I ate 3 cans of beans this month, which is a lot for me. I’m very proud of myself. Especially since beans was a common food for dinner growing up. Maybe I’m eating more types of foods probably due to me having a list on my fridge of all the foods I currently… Read More Rant 022
Some reason I’m having an imaginary conversation that could happen during my annual gyn exam and it’s with my surgeon. The conversation goes into me telling him my excitement and how gender euphoric it’s going to be. Along with how I’m trying to calm my anxiety. … Saying how regardless of my gender I would… Read More Rant 017
3 days of no meds really hit hard. Like it made my depression hard to get out of and everything effects me worse. I’m glad I finally on meds that help me function to where my depression doesn’t make me numb to everything. It’s terrifying when I would get so numb that the only way… Read More The Right Medication
As I’m jointing down my to do list for the next day I made an interesting self discovery. The way I talk about myself and others is very different. So much that I never once thought about it until today. I don’t refer to my anatomy the same way I refer other people. I can… Read More Gender Dysphasia
As I’m getting closer to starting HRT the more it’s sinking in things that should have been clear signs I was trans. Signs that pointed out if I had the knowledge and privilege to start transitioning I would have begun before puberty. I have written blogs about my childhood dream of having a gender pill… Read More Transitioning
Sometimes I wonder if I should have that long conversation with my parents about me being male. And when I think about it I get angry. I get frustrated and just want to avoid the whole topic all together. Other times I feel it be pointless. Like I can already hear them respond. When I… Read More I’m Strong?
