I already knew I was going to depend on someone to help me while healing from surgery but it’s so frustrating. Especially when it comes to chores that I’m very particular with. It’s more on the sense that my dishes aren’t being washed the way I like. For example there’s still pieces of food and… Read More Rant 029
Things I wish I said yesterday during the last day of this round of mindfulness group I’m grateful to have all my 5 senses. To be able to see the world around with the bonus of color and depth. When some people are either born blind or become blind later on. To be able to… Read More Gratitude
Have you ever forgot you were eating and stopped, then have a mini panic attack when you realize you were eating so you try to finish? Or have you tried eating your food as fast as possible so you can get over the fact you have to eat? Like it’s weird. On a good day… Read More Rant 026
I call these “Rants” because I don’t like using “Untitled”. Also due to the fact that most of the time something small leads into a longer rant. … I’m in a “hoarding” support therapy group. And I’m slowly working on getting my collecting* tendencies under control before it gets out of hand, like back in… Read More Rant 025
I think I ate 3 cans of beans this month, which is a lot for me. I’m very proud of myself. Especially since beans was a common food for dinner growing up. Maybe I’m eating more types of foods probably due to me having a list on my fridge of all the foods I currently… Read More Rant 022
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
Some reason I feel my first aid supplies is lacking. Along with over the counter medicine. … OTC: pain relief (off brand Tylenol), nasel relief (allergy nose pump), theraflu. First aid: anitiseptic cleaning spray, 3% hydrogen peroxide (spray), 70% isopropyl alcohol (rubbing alcohol), ice cold analgesic gel (menthol 1.25%)[like iceyhot but not], 50 spf sunscreen,… Read More Rant 018
Some reason I’m having an imaginary conversation that could happen during my annual gyn exam and it’s with my surgeon. The conversation goes into me telling him my excitement and how gender euphoric it’s going to be. Along with how I’m trying to calm my anxiety. … Saying how regardless of my gender I would… Read More Rant 017
Don’t laugh too hard but I really realized that I can write in MY OWN books. Like books that I brought. At that, it wasn’t until college that I learned I can customize my sketchbook and anything that I owned. lol It feels nice not to have someone scream and shame me for not keeping… Read More Rant 015
I sometimes wonder why I’m always in the wrong. From the why I feel, my thoughts, my beliefs, my needs, just about anything that has to do with me. Today I just feel so inadequate and if I even dare try to express that why someone things always go one or two ways. One (typically… Read More Rant 010
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