So… I did a thing. Especially since it will come in handy in the new year. Plus, I shifted my focus to next month’s budget so I can pretend I don’t have money. Really trying to do the “if I don’t know about it then it ain’t real” technique with my finances. Kinda like how… Read More Rant 033
My horrible emotions this past few days has made me gain 5 lbs. I’m close to not caring the rest of the month. But I can’t do that to myself. I gotta at least go from 244 to 240 by December 31th. At least close to 240. I’m not mad or disappointed, because I know… Read More Health 039
Past few days I been horrible. Like been overeating. So I won’t be surprised if I haven’t lost a pound this week. But I’m not sad about it. After all, for the first two weeks of recovery I been having strong cravings, plus been feeling like trash. So, what’s one week going off the deep… Read More Health 038
As I’m going through recovery I’m also getting better at accepting help. But what really makes me feel a sense of joy is that I noticed that for certain moments I’m reacting completely different than how the rest of my family would react. It brings me peace that there’s another part of me that is… Read More Rant 031
10 days post Laparoscopic Hysterectomy My sleep has slowly been getting better. For example I finally am well enough to comfortably sleep on my side. I had slowly transitioned from sleeping on my couch for the first 4 to 5 nights after returning from the hospital. Eventually was able to sleep on my bed, still… Read More Health 037
Watching a video on professional attire for a job interview and it triggered a funny conversation I had with my sister before. Since she’s constantly telling me how I should wear color and have a very professional outfits. She would always tell me to stop wearing black. Even though, black is one of the most… Read More Trauma Recovery 002
For someone who talks a lot online, especially in written format, I am dogshit terrified of doing so in video format. For goodness sake, I have made accounts just to make vlog like post. But my dumb truck of a behind thinks I’m gonna fuck up because I’m not interesting or with how I don’t… Read More Rant 030
I love cooking and making stuff from scratch because for the brief time I become a kid again and have a blast making a mess. At that, the kind where I just don’t care because I’m enjoying myself. Best part, nobody is around to yell at me for the mess because it’s my kitchen! The… Read More Childlike Joy. Trauma Recovery 001
This is why I’m glad I was finally able to seek physical therapy for my back and pelvic floor. Since it help me give me a baseline on how I am and where I can improve. It’s one thing to try to learn all this on my own, and I’m very knowledgeable about a lot… Read More Health Rant 036
I got to admit, I’m kinda surprised that after 6 days since surgery the surgery sights aren’t as bruised and swollen I thought they’ll be. Sure, I’m extremely grateful. Especially when I know my abdomen area heals better than the rest of my body. But I can’t deny I’m shocked with how everything is looking.… Read More Health 034
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