Know what’s the worst thing I heard growing up suicidal. Constantly being told to think about other people and how they would feel. Not once did anyone validate my feelings and tried to speak to me about why I felt that way. Making it ever so clear that I wasn’t even important enough to be… Read More Suicide
Know what sucks about constantly dealing with suicidal ideations and urges, is that I’m constantly avoiding medication. From pain meds to psychaitris meds. Especially because that was always my way out. Too many times coming close to overdose. Even worse when going through the process to be prescribed heavy meds to go through with finally… Read More Pills
I’m getting tired of people being surprised I haven’t heard or seen certain movies or bands. Especially when it feels like I’m being shamed for not knowing. They don’t get that I was extremely sheltered and isolated my whole life. At that, I’m much younger. Even my own older siblings shamed me for not knowing… Read More July 28, 2022
So thinking about dogs again. I do have my emotional support cat. But brain is weird today since I’m still recovering from a heavy crash. 2 full days in bed, leading into a 3rd day. A conversation on huskies came up and so that lead to a little research. My long term goal is to… Read More Service Dog?
You ever get excited over something so small that you just want to share it with the world?Well I do! I got this part of the carpet clean without using a broom to do so. For the longest dealing with how the litter box and my makeshift bed was on the same level really effected… Read More Small Joys
With recently speaking to my nephew again and one of my older sisters, I’m feeling very strange. Plus, the news that one of my aunts died and getting in contact with my cousin over it. Along with speaking with one of my nieces. All these things back to back has me on edge. Not to… Read More Feeling
Just had a thought. Maybe I don’t like hiking and the outdoors the way I thought I did. There can be a much deeper reason behind such desires. Like my longing, since childhood, of wanting to escape. The deep urge of running away from my family. That could be the reason I looked to nature… Read More Just maybe…
This is from a gender questionnaire I answered. … • How do I define gender? What does gender mean to me? Gender is a energy we all have. It’s like colors. Energy and colors changes through life and seasons. We can be one color or many, and we can be different shades of a color.… Read More What does gender mean to me
This is from a gender questionnaire I answered. … • How do I define gender? What does gender mean to me? Gender is a energy we all have. It’s like colors. Energy and colors changes through life and seasons. We can be one color or many, and we can be different shades of a color.… Read More What does gender mean to me
This is from a gender questionnaire I answered. … • How do I define gender? What does gender mean to me? Gender is a energy we all have. It’s like colors. Energy and colors changes through life and seasons. We can be one color or many, and we can be different shades of a color.… Read More What does gender mean to me
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