This might be a problem. Not a “OMG” problem, but still a problem. Been slowly removing soda from my diet again. And just when I brought candy back into my diet I relapsed into eating a lot of it. At that it had been years since I had candy before coming to OR. Like I… Read More Physical Health 007
Yesterday was a tough one because towards the end of the day I was fighting myself not to binge eat. From the lack of an appetite breakfast of one egg and a cup of tea, to have something in my stomach. To eating snacks (chips and chocolate), and ending the day with 2 servings of… Read More Physical Health 005
Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing something wrong for not having much to complain about my transition. Like how I interact with people or the body changes. A of things I do complain about is very shallow face value stuff. The kind of stuff that can easily be interpreted differently depending on the mood I’m… Read More Rant 023
I think I ate 3 cans of beans this month, which is a lot for me. I’m very proud of myself. Especially since beans was a common food for dinner growing up. Maybe I’m eating more types of foods probably due to me having a list on my fridge of all the foods I currently… Read More Rant 022
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
Some reason I feel my first aid supplies is lacking. Along with over the counter medicine. … OTC: pain relief (off brand Tylenol), nasel relief (allergy nose pump), theraflu. First aid: anitiseptic cleaning spray, 3% hydrogen peroxide (spray), 70% isopropyl alcohol (rubbing alcohol), ice cold analgesic gel (menthol 1.25%)[like iceyhot but not], 50 spf sunscreen,… Read More Rant 018
Some reason I’m having an imaginary conversation that could happen during my annual gyn exam and it’s with my surgeon. The conversation goes into me telling him my excitement and how gender euphoric it’s going to be. Along with how I’m trying to calm my anxiety. … Saying how regardless of my gender I would… Read More Rant 017
Don’t laugh too hard but I really realized that I can write in MY OWN books. Like books that I brought. At that, it wasn’t until college that I learned I can customize my sketchbook and anything that I owned. lol It feels nice not to have someone scream and shame me for not keeping… Read More Rant 015
I sometimes wonder why I’m always in the wrong. From the why I feel, my thoughts, my beliefs, my needs, just about anything that has to do with me. Today I just feel so inadequate and if I even dare try to express that why someone things always go one or two ways. One (typically… Read More Rant 010
So as I’m sitting around today a little thought popped up. I wonder if I would do any justice if I were to write all my antithetical beliefs and thoughts about topics I feel strongly about, even though many of the topics are things I’ve observed and struggled to justify if I even can speak… Read More Rant 008
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