This might be a problem.

Not a “OMG” problem, but still a problem. Been slowly removing soda from my diet again. And just when I brought candy back into my diet I relapsed into eating a lot of it.

At that it had been years since I had candy before coming to OR. Like I had candy here and there, but I didn’t buy the candy so I couldn’t consume it whenever I wanted. And chocolate had become that nice little rare treat until I brought multiple small ones.

Like I lose control with small amounts of things compared to large items. Hence why I like soda bottles instead of cans because I can consume it slowly. Cans make me feel rushed and so I drink it within one sitting. A whole chocolate bar gives me the satisfaction of eating one chocolate, sometimes throughout the day or just in that moment. But afterwards I don’t crave chocolate for a couple of days to weeks.

Maybe that’s my issue with sweets. Small amounts don’t satisfy me so I constantly crave more. Which leads to out of control binging. Where as a large amount (normal size chocolate bar, freshly made cinnamon roll, a 20 oz bottle of soda) makes it easy for me to enjoy in the moment but not crave more afterwards.

Which is funny because cooking in large amounts gives me anxiety. Then again, the things I listed as “large amounts” for my favorite treats are typically a perfect portion size for that particular item. So, maybe that’s also my issue.

To be fair, I don’t like the intense sugar flavor of candy. That’s how long I haven’t eaten any. But because I it’s such small amounts of sugar, I don’t feel satisfied and so I go in for more. Now that’s funny.

I also find it funny how I no longer like the taste of sweetened condensed milk. Now that I think of it, not sure if I ever really liked it. Sure, I used to eat maybe 3 spoonfuls of it as a kid. But it taste so sweet that it’s nasty. I can only tolerate it now when it’s made into a flan. Then again, flan is a special treat that I limit myself when I have it. Along with when it’s a flan there’s other stuff that balance the flavor.

My once favorite candy, lollipops, is no longer satisfying; which is sad. I used to enjoy one as I walked so I could distract myself from my other senses. But now I have music for that. I also now dislike the gum center. It just doesn’t hit like my memories of them do. Nor the Tootie pops. In fact, they’re much larger than I remembered. How did I fit a lollipop in my mouth comfortably as a kid? lol

So, maybe I’m looking at my sweet problem all wrong. I may have a problem when it comes to not having my cravings satisfied to the point I overdo it. Which makes sense, cause I don’t want to give up fresh baked goods.

Baked goods make great breakfast items. Or my favorite, baked goods are great for tea time. Nothing like a very nice scone or cinnamon roll with tea as a snack between lunch and dinner. yum Gonna make some blueberry scones for the week.