As of this moment I am safe. Yes, I was thinking suicide as I wrote this and was planning to, until I got to the end. It’s currently the only thing that’s making me debt killing myself. Trying to relieve some pain but deep down i really do with I could pull the plug to… Read More Poem: Suicide Note
Just feeling off and want to get some thoughts out of my head. There’s so many labels and things to identify as, but nothing feels right. It’s like I don’t even have an identity to begin with. I even feel some sort of pressure to choose which side I’m supposed to be on. This is… Read More Having a moment
I have spoken about a gender pill in the past, and it was more along a story plot. But now I’m going to try to explain the science behind my idea. I would like to once again reminded everyone that these ideas I had about a new world was since I was at least 5… Read More The science behind the gender pill and more
Something that I been fighting with is the whole concept of reproduction or commonly knowns as sex. It’s not that I don’t enjoy sex to some degree, but it’s bizarre to me. It’s a concept that makes me question a lot about myself. Like why do I feel talking about it can be so awkward.… Read More Emotional
I’m trapped I look in a mirror and don’t recognize who’s looking back I look down and become reminded of a part of me That I just want to rip away I feel something crawling under the flesh to this body Is this really me Even if I change will I still look into that… Read More Pride. Day 20. Poetry. Pain
I think being home for so long is finally getting to me, plus other things. I was always a home type person and rarely went out. It’s that I have a few other problems now. Let me explain. It’s very hard for me to pick up new things. This is due to anxiety and my… Read More Pride. Day 16. Dry
It is happening again where I’m going to scrap another version of Red Dragon book two. But this time all my scraps will be posted to my Patreon, plus art works for Red Dragon. And so, I will be starting to heavily use my patreon page for my series. On another note: I came out… Read More Pride. Day 15. Happening again
As this month been progressing, I have notice I have stopped on certain things. Also, I have been engaged in others. I have been ignoring my fanfics, updating Soulmates and Invaders, and just been kinda all over the place. I have tried to work on my Pride Month blog post and even pride related artwork.… Read More Pride. Day 6. Writing
This morning (NY Time zone), I was minding my business and enjoying a live TikTok. As I did so, I was sketching a few concepts I wanted to paint. Since it’s Pride month, the concept was Love Repressed/Chained Freedom. I posted the thumbnail sketch on twitter and asked my followers to suggest which on I… Read More Pride 2020: How dare you: Rant: Day 2
I current prefer both types of computers for different uses. I main love PC computers for the option of having a touch screen. This is because I find it very useful and quicker when my hands are involved into a digital space. It’s very easy to use ones hands to point out what needs… Read More Computer – Apple vs PC? Which computer do you choose?
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