I will not get over the fact that compared to my siblings I actually tried to follow the religion my family is apart of. From the morals to what a person is supposed to be. I said “tired”. Even when my family and have very different opinions on how to follow such principles, along with… Read More Trauma Recovery 005
Don’t mind me.Tryna get all the negativity out before the new years.You know, basically cleaning house.
It’s one of those things of I had a reached a decent point in many of my public profiles, but it was exhausting and I felt like a fake. And in my attempts to find myself again, I feel like I’m lacking something. Oh well, at least I’m trying and I’ll eventually get back to… Read More Trauma Recovery 004
Took a typical trip to the supermarket, for the first time in 4 weeks, and it felt amazing. I was even grateful for the store to be busy with last minute Christmas Eve meal shopping.
Some reason I’m recalling how my mom once told me how in DR she was able to drink goat milk without a problem, but cow milk made her sick. Yet, in the states she has the opposite effect. Interesting. Keep in mind, mom came from the country side of the Dominican Republic. So she’s used… Read More Health 043
Feeling good today. I started using weights again, but kept it light and on the floor. Best part is that I feel statified in the sense not really hungry or craving anything. Which is something I struggled during the time I couldn’t workout. It’s like, the urge to eat is practically gone. And I’m super… Read More Health 042
A part of me wants to start something but the other part is calling it a waste of time. Like trying to wait for everything to line up but then when I get there will I still make excuses that it’s not perfect enough. One of those things of being a traumatized perfectionist. I can’t… Read More Trauma Recovery 003
So… I did a thing. Especially since it will come in handy in the new year. Plus, I shifted my focus to next month’s budget so I can pretend I don’t have money. Really trying to do the “if I don’t know about it then it ain’t real” technique with my finances. Kinda like how… Read More Rant 033
Watching a video about overconsumption and made me wonder about kcup. Mainly like the single shots of coffee.Which led to the rabbit hole of would getting one of those machines worth it.The price alone is wild. Then the amount of coffee in one kcup is laughable. Not to mention the machine is huge and takes… Read More Rant 032
My horrible emotions this past few days has made me gain 5 lbs. I’m close to not caring the rest of the month. But I can’t do that to myself. I gotta at least go from 244 to 240 by December 31th. At least close to 240. I’m not mad or disappointed, because I know… Read More Health 039
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