Past few days I been horrible. Like been overeating. So I won’t be surprised if I haven’t lost a pound this week. But I’m not sad about it. After all, for the first two weeks of recovery I been having strong cravings, plus been feeling like trash. So, what’s one week going off the deep… Read More Health 038
As I’m going through recovery I’m also getting better at accepting help. But what really makes me feel a sense of joy is that I noticed that for certain moments I’m reacting completely different than how the rest of my family would react. It brings me peace that there’s another part of me that is… Read More Rant 031
10 days post Laparoscopic Hysterectomy My sleep has slowly been getting better. For example I finally am well enough to comfortably sleep on my side. I had slowly transitioned from sleeping on my couch for the first 4 to 5 nights after returning from the hospital. Eventually was able to sleep on my bed, still… Read More Health 037
Watching a video on professional attire for a job interview and it triggered a funny conversation I had with my sister before. Since she’s constantly telling me how I should wear color and have a very professional outfits. She would always tell me to stop wearing black. Even though, black is one of the most… Read More Trauma Recovery 002
For someone who talks a lot online, especially in written format, I am dogshit terrified of doing so in video format. For goodness sake, I have made accounts just to make vlog like post. But my dumb truck of a behind thinks I’m gonna fuck up because I’m not interesting or with how I don’t… Read More Rant 030
This is why I’m glad I was finally able to seek physical therapy for my back and pelvic floor. Since it help me give me a baseline on how I am and where I can improve. It’s one thing to try to learn all this on my own, and I’m very knowledgeable about a lot… Read More Health Rant 036
I got to admit, I’m kinda surprised that after 6 days since surgery the surgery sights aren’t as bruised and swollen I thought they’ll be. Sure, I’m extremely grateful. Especially when I know my abdomen area heals better than the rest of my body. But I can’t deny I’m shocked with how everything is looking.… Read More Health 034
Just wanna vent. As much as I want to buy a new mattress next month, it’ll be super unreasonable for me to do so. Sure, my current mattress is pretty sunken in, but I can manage a little longer. But that’s not why it’ll be unreasonable to get a new mattress. I currently won’t be… Read More Health 033
I already knew I was going to depend on someone to help me while healing from surgery but it’s so frustrating. Especially when it comes to chores that I’m very particular with. It’s more on the sense that my dishes aren’t being washed the way I like. For example there’s still pieces of food and… Read More Rant 029
The countdown has started. In preparation I’m forcing myself to deal with eating very little and drinking a lot of water. Along with taking a laxative. All this is because tomorrow I have to deal with a liquid diet. Because Wednesday is my surgery. I’m super excited and nervous. Most of my nervousness comes from… Read More Health 031
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