It’s so difficult to express how badly I want to feel wanted. How horribly selfish I feel for wishing to be cared for and lovely. The pain of everyone around me not wanting to deal with me. The pain of hearing them speak how my own mother giving me up. To be constantly reminded that… Read More Wanting
I feel so hopeless It’s not that I’m going back to my old ways And trying so hard to have the other like me But I’m not even sure if I’m ready To accept these growing feelings At that I’m not even sure What I would even call these feelings I never felt them before… Read More Heart
Whenever I think about money, I get so depressed. The subject just gets me so frustrated. And when I try to figure out ways to earn or fix my money problems I end up abandoning those projects. I get so angry and thoughts how they won’t work. And I even become so stressed to the… Read More Worth
What is a boy to do? Especially as the world sees you as a girl Where the common notion is telling you it’s all a phase How you’re just being a tomboy How you don’t know what you’re talking about Being surrounded with people who don’t see you They just stare and demand you to… Read More Xexiar. P1
DBZ Goku age 24 to 30. Keep in mind that I am not a professional in psychology. … When we meet Goku again in Dragon Ball Z, it has past 5 years since the 23rd tournament. This would mean he is 24 years of age. We even meet his son. We can see some significant… Read More Dragon Ball Character Profile Analysis: Kakarot (Son, Goku) Part 2
Journey of the Heart 10 long years of training under my teacher. 10 long years I had helped to protect the future king. 10 long years not allowed to fight and just run to safety. He states I’m the last resort if he fails, but something feels off. Throughout the years, I’ve noticed I was… Read More Dabble 2
I must be a fool. As the night lingers, I wonder to myself. I have done all I could for those around me. I had conformed to what everyone wanted of me. Even trying to contain my thoughts to myself. And in the end, I’m all alone. I have tried endlessly to fill this void… Read More A Fool
As of this moment I am safe. Yes, I was thinking suicide as I wrote this and was planning to, until I got to the end. It’s currently the only thing that’s making me debt killing myself. Trying to relieve some pain but deep down i really do with I could pull the plug to… Read More Poem: Suicide Note
So I finally decided to go on with turning my dabble into something more. A lesbian romance. This will be so much fun. Especially since this would be more of a personal fantasy than anything else. Which makes this even more exciting. I hope you check it out and let me know if you enjoyed… Read More New Book-ish
Just feeling off and want to get some thoughts out of my head. There’s so many labels and things to identify as, but nothing feels right. It’s like I don’t even have an identity to begin with. I even feel some sort of pressure to choose which side I’m supposed to be on. This is… Read More Having a moment
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