Day 2 on sticking to a strict diet is going pretty well. ☺️
Since not tracking my exercise progress made it more easy to deal with food. Since I’m being told to eat more because I burned calories, which made the goal harder to achieve. And when the goal became harder to achieve it made it easier to eat a lot and not be mindful about anything. It also made it easier to snack on things just to reach a calorie deficit goal. Extra suck.

Today I went to my physical therapist and they had free chocolates. I didn’t feel bad for taking some, for 3 reasons. 1) they were small. 2) once I ate them they’ll be no more so it takes away the thought from my mind. Aka I got the instant satisfaction without it causing me in the long run. 3) today was a “bad” day of eating, so I needed the extra calories.

When I say “bad” in this context it just means I wasn’t up for anything big or heavy since I was planning a heavy dinner. Along with the fact I was having hunger pains on the way to therapy, so the extra calories helped me push through.

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On a fun note, I noticed I had extra funds in my budget. I was going to let it run into the next month, but the thought of surgery was fresh on my mind. And watching someone meal prep for their surgery made me wonder if I was equipped to handle that kind of task. Along with constantly being suggested to meal prep, even though I have a very “picky” eating habit.

I decided to window shop Walmart to see if I could find at least 4 extra containers so I could practice meal prepping. Ended up going to Walmart and finding a larger set that fit into my budget. Gonna be washing everything tomorrow and going to try an attempt at a full meal prep, again.

I have attempted meal prep before and I get tired of the dish within 2 days. I even tried making items that I could mix and match so I wouldn’t get sick of it. That didn’t last long. But I really need to try again. Especially since I’m regressing and not adding veggies in my meals. It had returned to meat and scratch (potatoes/rice).

I’m also struggling with avocados. It’s weird in the sense I’ll eat up to a certain amount of days and then I’m sick of it. And it’s one of those fruits that has lots of benefits when adding it into my diet. Not even sure if I’m going to buy milk next month. It’s weird.

Might attempt to write out an actual meal plan instead of just listing ingredients like I tend to do. I truly just say that I’m going to eat “pork, rice, corn” but no context or anything. I’m sure many have noticed that when I share what I eat on instagram. So, perhaps my issue is that I’m not excited about a meal because it’s just very boring.

If that’s the case, I should try to make it exciting. But then that thought is just weird and awkward. I’m literally eating chicken and rice. What’s so exciting about that?

It’s like: what kind of rice? White long grain. What kind of chicken? Breast.

I’m literally lost on what to do because it’s something so simple. Brain is struggling to put 2 and two together, but it somehow is giving me square. If that’s makes any sense.

Sure, I’m aware of the difference ways to prepare chicken. Depending on my energy levels and mood on that day will determine how I prepare the food. But brain just knows it going to be a certain protein that is what’s going to be used.

Does this make any sense for anyone else?