What is a boy to do? Especially as the world sees you as a girl Where the common notion is telling you it’s all a phase How you’re just being a tomboy How you don’t know what you’re talking about Being surrounded with people who don’t see you They just stare and demand you to… Read More Xexiar. P1
I must be a fool. As the night lingers, I wonder to myself. I have done all I could for those around me. I had conformed to what everyone wanted of me. Even trying to contain my thoughts to myself. And in the end, I’m all alone. I have tried endlessly to fill this void… Read More A Fool
As of this moment I am safe. Yes, I was thinking suicide as I wrote this and was planning to, until I got to the end. It’s currently the only thing that’s making me debt killing myself. Trying to relieve some pain but deep down i really do with I could pull the plug to… Read More Poem: Suicide Note
Just feeling off and want to get some thoughts out of my head. There’s so many labels and things to identify as, but nothing feels right. It’s like I don’t even have an identity to begin with. I even feel some sort of pressure to choose which side I’m supposed to be on. This is… Read More Having a moment
I’m trapped I look in a mirror and don’t recognize who’s looking back I look down and become reminded of a part of me That I just want to rip away I feel something crawling under the flesh to this body Is this really me Even if I change will I still look into that… Read More Pride. Day 20. Poetry. Pain
I think being home for so long is finally getting to me, plus other things. I was always a home type person and rarely went out. It’s that I have a few other problems now. Let me explain. It’s very hard for me to pick up new things. This is due to anxiety and my… Read More Pride. Day 16. Dry
Let’s sit down for a moment and look at what we’ve done We stare at the ticking clock and wish the time would just stop We sit and act like everything is fine We’re under a heavy psychosis but don’t want to admit what is wrong We can’t admit that it’s hard to breathe and… Read More Let’s Talk
Just breathe Those thoughts Aren’t you Just smile You’re doing Just fine It’s ok To take breaks Don’t push Too hard You’re not alone It’ll pass… Stop lying to yourself Stop forcing that smile You’re angry You’re sad You’re happy You’re energetic The scars are your reminded You’re still alive… Read More Just Breathe
I’m ok Yeah that’s it I’m fine Don’t worry See this smile Everything is fine Got to keep Standing When I feel Like I could pass out Got to keep Smiling When everything Just hurts so much Walk slow They won’t notice The truth They keep asking I keep lying Do I really Look so… Read More I’m not weak
as i sit here watching the hours fly by my limbs feeling heavy and my chest is aching i look at the pill bottle beside me with blurring vision trying to read the distribution wanting to know how many will it take to numb the pain and be able to wake from this nightmare the… Read More I’m Dying
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