It’s been 28 days since my hysterectomy, and I have made great progress since my last update. I am taking my sweet time recovering. From finally being able to wash both my hands at the same time to sleeping on my stomach. During my 2-week post-surgery checkup I have been giving the clear to sleep… Read More Health 041. Surgery Update
This month seems to be the hardest since I just seem to be gaining weight. At least for now, and I’m not gaining extremely. But it’s still very distressing. I weighed myself this morning and I’m 245 lbs. 😭At this rate I’ll be lucky to lose 2 pounds before the 31st. I know I shouldn’t… Read More Health 040
A part of me wants to start something but the other part is calling it a waste of time. Like trying to wait for everything to line up but then when I get there will I still make excuses that it’s not perfect enough. One of those things of being a traumatized perfectionist. I can’t… Read More Trauma Recovery 003
My horrible emotions this past few days has made me gain 5 lbs. I’m close to not caring the rest of the month. But I can’t do that to myself. I gotta at least go from 244 to 240 by December 31th. At least close to 240. I’m not mad or disappointed, because I know… Read More Health 039
This is why I’m glad I was finally able to seek physical therapy for my back and pelvic floor. Since it help me give me a baseline on how I am and where I can improve. It’s one thing to try to learn all this on my own, and I’m very knowledgeable about a lot… Read More Health Rant 036
I got to admit, I’m kinda surprised that after 6 days since surgery the surgery sights aren’t as bruised and swollen I thought they’ll be. Sure, I’m extremely grateful. Especially when I know my abdomen area heals better than the rest of my body. But I can’t deny I’m shocked with how everything is looking.… Read More Health 034
Just wanna vent. As much as I want to buy a new mattress next month, it’ll be super unreasonable for me to do so. Sure, my current mattress is pretty sunken in, but I can manage a little longer. But that’s not why it’ll be unreasonable to get a new mattress. I currently won’t be… Read More Health 033
I already knew I was going to depend on someone to help me while healing from surgery but it’s so frustrating. Especially when it comes to chores that I’m very particular with. It’s more on the sense that my dishes aren’t being washed the way I like. For example there’s still pieces of food and… Read More Rant 029
So… randomly I looked at the sizing of my shirts as I put them to wash, and I learned something amazing. My everyday shirts I wore for basically a year, big enough to fit comfortably but enough extra fabric it looked bigger than me, are all 3XL (and are men shirts). My Lane Bryant long… Read More Health 029
I definitely needed a rest day. Been having a rough cough, like the itchy throat dry cough one gets during allergy season. But you would think that me drinking tea, drinking water, and taking cough drops would help. Nope. So I really need to take a full on rest day, probably at least 2. And… Read More Health 022
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