Today is fun, since it’s grocery shopping day. A lot of this going to sound weird and awkward because it’s my post on facebook, as I’m going through running errands. … From my the bottom of my right knee down to the bridge of my foot it fucking hurts! But gotta push through the pain.… Read More Health 020
So… decided to take out the clothes from my closet for some unknown reason. I just did it. Now I’m trying to figure out what the he’ll am I going to do with them. Which some I was saving until I lost weight, since those tend to fit currently a bit tight. There’s also some… Read More Rant 027
Things I wish I said yesterday during the last day of this round of mindfulness group I’m grateful to have all my 5 senses. To be able to see the world around with the bonus of color and depth. When some people are either born blind or become blind later on. To be able to… Read More Gratitude
What does it mean to be a kid at heart? To still be curious about the world around you, and finding joy in the most simplest of things. Like spotting a worm on the sidewalk after a rainy day. Seeing rainbows in just about any pool of water. Getting excited about something that other people… Read More Curiosity and Hope
So I had a fun thought this morning that I kept thinking about. So imma share it with you. … Since I’m gonna be put to sleep for my surgery I been absolutely terrified of the idea of such a thing. And as time progresses and I’m getting closer I’m slowly getting my brain ready… Read More Physical Health 014
I think quitting alcohol is much easier than overcoming my ED. In the sense that it’s easy to avoid alcohol when I’m broke, so it’s become easier to rationalize that I don’t need it. But when it comes to my ED I have to deal with food. Food is an important thing that is use… Read More Physical Health 012
I feel like absolute shit today. Especially after everything I ate today. Like I ate heavy meals and it’s really affecting me.I been trying to balance out at least 1 huge meal, and about 2 snacks between meals so I can have light meals.This way my calorie intake evens out so I can manage my… Read More Physical Health 008
Have you ever forgot you were eating and stopped, then have a mini panic attack when you realize you were eating so you try to finish? Or have you tried eating your food as fast as possible so you can get over the fact you have to eat? Like it’s weird. On a good day… Read More Rant 026
Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing something wrong for not having much to complain about my transition. Like how I interact with people or the body changes. A of things I do complain about is very shallow face value stuff. The kind of stuff that can easily be interpreted differently depending on the mood I’m… Read More Rant 023
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
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